... this joy that i have

All i can say is that i'm the happiest that i've been in really long azz time. This joy that I have... the world just can't take it away.

Everything is finally falling into the right places ... First off, my family is doing well.. and my little brother is finally on the verge of getting his shyt together... on the brink!!! But, i think he's gonna make the right decision. My puppy, the "catweiler" is a million times improved... since I adopted him as an act of charity to spare his life. He was one of those pups that the ASPCA labeled as unadoptable and difficult. (For not fault of his own)... For he is a truely mighty dog. Nowadays he's all 'grown-up' having the free run of the house for up to 10 hours a day... and not getting into any trouble. Wow!! He makes me proud.

I've made great strides for myself... applying and being accepted into an Ivy/Biology/ph.D program. I never cease to amaze myself!! I've worked really hard and hopefully... in the next 10 years i'll see ALL of the fruits of my labor. But for the time being, i'm gonna learn to be a great scientist and .. and embark on the road to greatness.

last summer i made one of the best decisions that i have made for myself during my entire 'adulthood'. I finally cut myself free from my pseudo-boyfriend = PB (pseudo... cuz he refused to be in a commited, monogamous relationship). I've wasted waaay to many years waiting for him to get his act together... waiting for him to be NICE to me. Giving him chance after chance to make things better and work on our relationship. Only to watch things fail, fall appart and have my feelings smashed and smaterred time and time again. Well, the PB called me last night wanting to work things out ... doing his usual slick talk and guilt-tripp'in tryin to make me reconsider ....

... this joy that I have... NOBODY can take it away!!!!

I told him that i'm done, we're done!!!


I haven't been this happy in a really long time..