... procrastination

so it's been a while since i've been on here (again). Umm... like is good! I finished my first semester and passed all of my classes. SO i haven't been kicked out of the program yet and these folks still believe I can do it. I think I can too... but it's really rough sometimes.

My experiements are going ok.. totally screwed up my qPCR. I talked to Dr. B this morning and she said the machine is "forgiving" and not to give up home on my results yet. So, with that in mind... I walked over to J-Dub to check. DARN IT!!! the machine is being serviced, so I wasn't able to retrieve my data.

I'm gonna repeat the experiment today... hopefully it will go alot smoother.... Dr. B suggested a new way to try for manipulating the plate. So i'm gonna give it a whirl.

So... over the next few days i'm gonna start blogging regularly!

Topcics of interest
1. my house
2. my roomate
3. my boyfriend

(i had to write it so that i don't forget!)

peace fur now
... KRAZY

... Sooo caucasian

so much has happened since i've blogged.

I moved to providence, started graduate school... tonight i'm at woods hole in massachusetts. I am soo tired and i'm trying hard to hold it all together.

sometimes is just so hard to be the only black girl in a completely white world (ie Brown university). people automatically assume that i don't know anything. like, they'll ask me a question and when i give them the correct answer they completely disregard what I said and ask someone else. and when i turns out that i'm right.... they're suprised

i wasn't born yesterday... further more i have a moderate level of intelligence ... don't be foooled by the melanin! Not all of us are ignorant and clueless.

okay.. i'm off to shower

Life is grrovvvy baby
... KRAZY

... priorities!

it's been a while since I wrote... and of course alot has happened!

First of all, I went to vegas! It was a nice too-short vacation! But it was hot as FUK!!!

Anyways... yeah, priorities!

So, my current BF has his priorities all backwards!!!! I totally drives me krazy!!!!

So, PB has this fascination with older cars. Which is totally kool!! I have no problem with it. He currently has a car is an older "doesn't go" and it... doesn't go! He's always having some sort of issue with it. So, the other day he was at some distant relatives house and they had an old caddy garaged. He liked it alot and the guy wanted to sell it to him for $300. He called me all excited about how he was gonna buy another car ....

I... on the other hand wasn't so thrilled. He currently has a car that is totally unreliable, and he registered a car in his name... for his mother (as a favor to her). So, his mom or siblings can call up an any given moment and demand the truck. And... it's not like he can say "no"... so once again ... he has 2 unreliable vehicles.

Like, why would someone who has 2 unreliable veichles even think about getting another one? ANYWAYS!!! I asked him where he planned to keep the car. He was like "i'll get it registered and park it in front of my apartment!" Hmm... i dunno that just sounds silly!! CUz he'd have 2 unreliable cars parked out in front of his apt. and then sometime a 3rd vehicle.???

Well, he's supposed to be getting a lump sum of money one day.. soon. and suggested to him that he should get a good reliable car. I"m soooo sick and tired of hearing about his car giving him problems and his car not starting...ANyways, he immediately dismissed my idea and was like "it's too expensive!"

Ya know... i love him.... i really really do.... but it's just these little things that make me believe that things won't last long term!!

I need him to be more independant and self reliant...

i'm going home!

- KIM

... one day away

today i had a terrible day!!! It's one day before the closing and i'm so tired, stressed and aggravated!

Today the bank of america called me like 10 times at work in refernce to mortage matters. It totally pissed me off because i specifically TOLD them to call me on my cell phone at all time. But apparently someone in the office doesn't know how to read.

And... I called early this morning trying to figure out how much money they're expecting at closing ... those fukker spent half the day talkin outta their ass sayin that they'd get back to me and they never did. And to add insult to injury!!! They called my house and left a message with my BROTHER!!!

Mind you, i'm a pretty private person, and I like to keep my private personal finances .. private (HELLO!!!) and they had they told him!!!! How stewpid can these people be??? Is my brothers name mentioned anywhere? did he sign any documentation? So, why did these people call and tell my brother how much money i owe them?????

... and do you know what that dum fuk did? He called my mom spazzing out about how much money i owed to the bank ... my mom told me that I had everythin under control and told him to call me to give me the dollar amount. AND... do you know what he did? His ass never called!!!!

So i still don't know how much fukking money i owe and how much i should get my bank check for !!!! Not to mention, that i'm leaving connecticut before local banks even open so i have no idea how i'm going to get all of this together in time.

..... And, when i'm late it's their fault!!!

i am sooo aggravated... and I have to go to walmart tonight!!!

Ugh!

... and this too shall come to pass

Sooo yeah!

It's been a minute, but the sibling still has the modem that he jacked... from me!!!

Nevertheless, Sooo several posts back i commented on the fact that I thought the PM's roomie hates me. I've thought it to myself for a while now.. I even mentioned it to "Mr. Nasty" Of course, he told me that he couldn't tell cuz he didnt' have enough info. And he knows that i'm prone to over reaction.

So, this weekend PM and I went out for pizza and we were talking about stuff. Like, several days before when we were out camping with the kids I started to tell him about instances in which I was annoyed with him.. or he did something that upset me. I went on to tell him that I know that I am overreaction prone, so I tend to run my sentiment by Mr. Nasty before putting on the table against the person that i'm griping with. Anyways, this whole convo. opened up alot of dialogue (which is totally kool). He had been pressing me for examples of my over reaction or other things that happened to be on my mind.

I told him of 2 things:
1. the time that he planned to ditch me for a bike ride with his roomate. But decided to go with me afterwards ... claiming that his shoulder hurt too badly to bike ride (... BUT, i also told him that I felt like 2nd best in that sitution) Anyways.. he appologized again and again and told me he knew that he made the wrong decision and had felt guilty about it immediately afterwards. I forgave him... and I let him know

2. I told him "I don't think your roomate likes me" and he was like "why" and I told him that it was little things. I told him about 2 of the 3 little things ... like the fact that I don't feel that she acknowledges me appropriately when I greet her and the fact that she can't look me in the eye. Of course, I reiterated that these are little things and i'm not sure. BUT, to my suprise, he didn't defend her .. he told me that he felt that there was some truth to my sentiment. Cuz, he's noticed that she gets really quiet and withdrawn when i'm there... she just gets really awkward. We talked about it more ... he suggested that maybe she doesn't like the fact that we used to have loud sex in his room. I pondered that for a sec ... but, really ... if that were truely the issue at hand she'd be mad at both of us. Granted 60% mad at me and 40% mad at him.... but, mad at both of us nevertheless (not only focused on me). He agreed ... he says he wonders if she has a crush on him ... he told me that she sometimes says things to him that makes him wonder (.. yes, he told me in detail too.. but i'm not about to type it out).

.. bottom line is ... my PM is a cutie... and there is nothing that i can do about that... other women are gonna think he's attractive ... I'm gonna take it as a compliment to my good taste ... and not even sweat it.....!!!

OOOOOOoooooohhh... YES!!! I almost forgot, I had sex on the beah on sat. night (and no, i'm not talking about the drink!!!)

holler!

Ok .. I gots ta bounce!

peace

... secret service

One of my friends called me to chat tonight. He's one of those guys that I had thunk was really nice and sweet and stuff. But as I learned more about him i realized that he was not of the same calibur of my best-est friend (... the one that has the power of 5 pimps in his left hand...). Nevertheless, he's a nice guy... but he always ends up with these women who hurt his feelings. I dunno, it seems as if he's always attracted to an uphill battle. Anyways, it was good to hear from him ... he was telling me about the newest crush he has and how he told her how he feels... and she doesn't seem to be receptive. Oh well, such is life .... We spoke for a while and I told him that i recently started blogging more regularly to express my thoughts .. I asked him if he blogged and he was like "Hell no, i work for the federal gvmn't!!!"

I digress, yes ... PM didn't go on the bike ride with his roomate last friday... instead he came out to hang with me at happy hour. I was glaad!! I wore a tiny brown Vicky-S's dress and showed a lotta cleavage with the help of a good azz vicky-s's strapless padded bra. It was definitely weird walking up to people and watching their eyes dissapear into my mirage of cleavage (.. cuz i'm really as flat as a 2X4)

Also, PM and I scheduled our vegas vacation we leave july 23 and return on the 26th. We're staying at the luxor. ANd apparently he told his californian sister that we're gonna be there and she's gonna meet us there with her hubby and kids. Hmmm... i just hope it doesn't interfere with all of the fun to be had!

The closing on my house is good for july 15th. I got my loan commitment letter from the bank today and everything is all said and done for. I just gotta finsh gathering up my down payment and it'll be mine by july 15. Last night I even stopped by PM's place to pick paint colors. I'm gonna paint 3 different colors downstairs and 2 different colors upstairs... and leave the basement blue. Oh gosh i'm soo excited and happy ... and looking forward to this.

anyways, once again my communist leech sibling hijacked the modem at home... so i'm blogging from work... but it's almost midnight and i'm really tired... so i must run!

I have more to tell.... but i'll save it

peace

... please tell me that i'm over reacting!

Ok i have a gripe... a complaint... a dilemma.... and i need to get it out!

So, last week I asked PM to go to happy hour with me on friday.. with my co-workers. He was cool with it .

So, i called him tonight was on the phone all happy and cheerful and stuff. And I non-chalantly asked him what his plans were for the weekend. I was PLEASANTLY suprised when he told me that he was going for a bike-ride with his roomate on friday evening ... totally disregarding the fact that him and I were supposed to spend friday night together with my peoples.

When I reminded him of our prior plans he told me that he forgot that we had made plans and then he asked me what he should do. I was annoyed and was like "do whatever you want to do" he told me that he wanted to go hang with his roomate....

... I dunno, if i'm over reacting or if i'm just PMS'in but... it kinda hurts to have him ditch me to hang with his roomate... especially since he made plans with me first. Maybe i'm just being my plain old selfish self... wanting things my way all of the time and every day.

I'm really trying to control my feelings but i feel kinda rejected and betrayed.

anyways, i still think i'm over reacting .... i'm gonna sleep on it.

g'nite

... Wilma Flinstone left her washer and dryer in my condo!

Hello again!!!

I was reading through my blog after I blogged last ninght and I realized that I never updated the whole washing machine deal!

Well, after telling my realtor... MB contacted the other realtor about the claim of the 'ol switcheroo. Apparently the owners were upset ... or some shit claiming that they never switched them ... So, it's basically my word against theirs.

I dunno, MB was like "we can send somone over there to make sure the machines are in working order" and PM was pissed talk'in 'bout I should call them and tell them that i don't want them anymore... and that they should remove them from the house.

URghhhh... I just can't bother with all of this drama. I told MB that i'll just let it go... somtimes you've gotta pick your battles... and I don't think this is one that is worth picking. I have no hard evidence (ie. pictures/model numbers/serial numbers) to prove that they switched that shit. So, like I said it's my word against theirs... and I already know it's a lost cause.

PM is still annoyed, i had to get him to stop talking about it ... the other night, and I was kinda bitchy too ... I felt bad afterwards. But, i just want to let it go... and not hear another word on the subject. Yes, it's upsetting and yes i feel slighted and taken-advantage of.. but on the real... I just can't bother with any additional drama!

The bottom line is ... I know the current owners are being shady.. I called them out on it... so now they know that I know that they're dishonest little fuks!!! They know the truth in their hearts.. and they can swear up and down that they didn't switch them (even though they know they did!) ....I just hope they don't teach their poor innocent child how to be a deceptive loser!