... i like this ~cutted and pasted~

"BECAUSE" by TD Jakes

Just because no one has been fortunate enough to realize what a gold mine you are,
Doesn`t mean you shine any less.

Just because no one has been smart enough to figure out that you can`t be topped,
Doesn`t stop you from being the best.

Just because no one has come along to share your life,
Doesn`t mean that day isn`t coming.

Just because no one has made this race worthwhile,
Doesn`t give you permission to stop running.

Just because no one has realized how much of an awesome woman you are,
Doesn`t mean they can affect your femininity.

Just because no one has shown up who can love you on your level,
Doesn`t mean you have to sink to theirs.

Just because you deserve the very best there is,
Doesn`t mean that life is always fair.

Just because God is still preparing your king,
Doesn`t mean that you`re not already a Queen.

Just because your situation doesn`t seem to be progressing right now,
Doesn`t mean you need to change a thing.

Keep shining, keep running, Keep hoping, and keep praying, Keep being exactly what you are already. COMPLETE!!

... this joy that i have

All i can say is that i'm the happiest that i've been in really long azz time. This joy that I have... the world just can't take it away.

Everything is finally falling into the right places ... First off, my family is doing well.. and my little brother is finally on the verge of getting his shyt together... on the brink!!! But, i think he's gonna make the right decision. My puppy, the "catweiler" is a million times improved... since I adopted him as an act of charity to spare his life. He was one of those pups that the ASPCA labeled as unadoptable and difficult. (For not fault of his own)... For he is a truely mighty dog. Nowadays he's all 'grown-up' having the free run of the house for up to 10 hours a day... and not getting into any trouble. Wow!! He makes me proud.

I've made great strides for myself... applying and being accepted into an Ivy/Biology/ph.D program. I never cease to amaze myself!! I've worked really hard and hopefully... in the next 10 years i'll see ALL of the fruits of my labor. But for the time being, i'm gonna learn to be a great scientist and .. and embark on the road to greatness.

last summer i made one of the best decisions that i have made for myself during my entire 'adulthood'. I finally cut myself free from my pseudo-boyfriend = PB (pseudo... cuz he refused to be in a commited, monogamous relationship). I've wasted waaay to many years waiting for him to get his act together... waiting for him to be NICE to me. Giving him chance after chance to make things better and work on our relationship. Only to watch things fail, fall appart and have my feelings smashed and smaterred time and time again. Well, the PB called me last night wanting to work things out ... doing his usual slick talk and guilt-tripp'in tryin to make me reconsider ....

... this joy that I have... NOBODY can take it away!!!!

I told him that i'm done, we're done!!!


I haven't been this happy in a really long time..

... why

I've spent the majority of my day asleep... I've had THE laziest of lazy days imaginable yesterday (march 21).

My day was composed of falling asleep at 4:00am ... being awoken by the beloved catweiler at 8am. Sleeping until noon... going to Ihop at 1pm... sleeping again from 3 to 8pm.

And now my arse is "wide-awoke" trying to pass the time away. Yeah, i think i've got it all backwards (ya know .. sleep during the day.. awake during the night).

Anyways, I was inspired by a friend of mine to create my own blog-thingee... I read a few postings from other folks and thought they were maaaad phunny. And I thunk to myself "hmm.. this may be another cool way for me too shoot the shyt and pass time"

... but only time will tell ... ya know???